REFLECTION: Nana

Last year this time I had school and heard the worst news I ever had in my entire life because my grandmother passed. It was such a bad time for me because I was already dealing with so much the day prior. I had so many emotions that I just stayed up the entire night till morning.

One of the most significant things that I did learn about 3 this morning last year was that all of her siblings were awake. Hmm, I think God really did a thing there. I was already up as I said and I guess sometimes we don’t really realize how some many things change when one thing changes.

One of the things that I still try to process is how different going out of town will be to visit “her”. She won’t be up at the house and she won’t be doing the grandma things I always look forward to. I plan on doing so much with everything that she has taught me and really she didn’t have to speak to teach. That is something that I want even evident in my own life. The way she loved and cared really taught all we needed to know as kids.

I’ll definitely miss the pep talks every break about books before boys and studying. She always ensured to tell us to read. Maynee. I’m happy that’s something I naturally loved because when she said it it sounded less of a “grandma telling me something for life” but more like her blessing me to do what I love. You know? She really is the reason I started this blog. I must have said this a thousand times, but this one is the top of the list. I really had a moment of reflection for a few months literally from today last year to about March (before Corona though lol) and I was looking on how much she did. She completed a lot of things that I also desire for myself. I thought always about doing it when I’m older or when I’m more mature or when I’m more qualified but she never allowed anything to slow her down or excuse her. Sis travelled EVERYWHERE and some would think that age would limit her, but no chileee… that was not her portion. Lol.

One day I’ll really dive into all the things she has taught me and how they influence or affect how I see the world and how I choose to live my purpose. This was just for me to really think about her today. Not really for the sake of going deep but yes. This was just for my personal reasons.

My heart is with anyone that lost anyone in 2020. I pray that the peace of God will be your source and who you go to on difficult days like this. I pray that you still find joy in your days. I pray that your better days are still ahead. I pray that your happy days will outweigh the bad days. I pray that your accomplishments will not be pushed aside. I pray that your passion to live will not decrease. AMEN !!

Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.

Matthew 5:4

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